Tuesday July 22, 2008

Best Part of the Day-

Scarlet and I went to our neighborhood Farmers' Market and it was delightful.  We picked out many delish/FRESH items and Scarlet had tons o' fun getting the skinny from each farmer.   "Are these organic?  We need organic!" she would inform.  As we were walking out with our heavy bags of goods we saw a woman sitting on the grass peeling a newly purchased item (it looked like a Granny Smith apple).  Scarlet naturally asked what it was and then, "can I try a bite?"  The woman gave S. a slice of kohlrabi and S. beamed "I love it.  I love farmers' markets." Me too.

Worst Part of the Day-

Peeps, I just have not been sleeping well at all. (My heavens, I don't know what could be bothering me?)  It is clear now that it has been 14 nights in a row that I have a classic case of insomnia.  It bites.  I guess I shouldn't have made fun of insomniacs my whole life long...I just didn't get it.  I was a champion sleeper.  I could sleep anywhere and at any time.  I was on the varsity sleep squad in both high school and college.  Now I cannot sleep a wink.  I am hurting in the mornings.

Most Profound Part of the Day-

I have had a moment of clarity today (and I am not even a recovering alcoholic...).  But I am recovering.  It occurred to me that I need to ease up a bit on Will-O and start to truly let some of my emotions (hurt, pain, frustration) go.  I had and have very valid reasons for my actions and emotions, but somehow today I was able to see my role in this as well (there's that clarity part) and that it does take 2 to tango, so to speak.  Even though Will-O has some things to learn for sure, it is key that I allow him to be, well, himself.  I need to trust him and essentially allow him to do/be instead of waiting for him to screw up and then say "ah ha!"  (Not that I would be quite that mean--but maybe...)  I feel good about this change in perspective.    

See--only working 1 job gives me vast free time to philosophize.   What will I come up with tomorrow??