Worst Part of the Day - This was actually kind of funny - I put IMP down for his nap and he just wailed and wailed. I thought "he'll calm down" and went upstairs to use the computer. Upon coming downstairs my mom said "oh I thought you were downstairs with IMP - he cried for a LONG time." So we both agreed I should check on him. Now IMP is sleeping in a crib in a big closet with doors in the room I'm sleeping in. I open the door and am astounded to find him on the queen bed (MY bed) fast asleep with his beloved froggie softie. Okay - so do I move him or no? I move him back to the crib and he starts to WAIL again. I close the door to the room. Twenty minutes later, I check on him and there he is back on (MY) the bed. Then he proceeded to sleep for 2.5 more hours. Wow. Here is a kid who knows what he wants and knows how to get it. That scares me (and simultaneously makes me proud.) Okay - so where am I going to sleep now?
Best Part of the Day - The boyz and I had an amazing afternoon. We played (mostly) gently outside. We walked calmly together. There was no trauma or drama - it was just like a dream. No crying, no whining, no running away from me, no tantrums. SB listened and obeyed the first time, every time. IMP was good as gold. It was soooo fun and the afternoon just flew by! Here's hoping for more of this and less of the other.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Wednesday July 30, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I did a bunch of yard work: gardening, trimming, hedging, pruning, watering of parched to hell grass and flowers. It was fun to be outside with Liam (amusing himself pleasantly) and check, check, checking things off the never ending list. We were outside for a couple hours when he said to me with a frown, "hot, hot, hot." And I thought oh buddy, I'm sorry, it is about 90 degrees out here!
I just love it hot--it doesn't even phase me. Perhaps because I am a direct descendant of one of the original sun goddesses...
Worst Part of the Day-
(I rarely ever look in the mirror...) Today I noted quite objectively that I look like someone who is on the verge of an intense makeover--with a pot belly and horrifyingly neglected eyebrows--eek. Now where is my team of professionals to transform me??? Hello?
Tuesday July 29, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I started my bi-annual running program with the girls at work. I am running with them 5 morns/week (6:15am-yikes) and we are "training" for a 2 mile run/walk race called Dylan's Run which will be held at the Summerfest grounds in early Sept. It benefits Autism (something Dylan's family started for him, I suppose.) So, today was day #1. It was a day to begin working out the kinks which include MANY of these girls: a). complain after walking 10 steps b). do not like mornings in general, let alone exercise in the morning c). do not have running bras or running shoes d). were winded and requesting inhalers after 1/10 of a mile.
This is why we train for 5 weeks, I guess, for a measly 2 miles.
Come on ladies, drop 'em and give me 20!
Also--I found out the gender of my brother and sister-in-law's babe-to-be!!!!! It's a...
(so exciting to be Auntie M. in December!!)
Worst Part of the Day-
Will-O seemed more dramatic (euphemism for intensely labile, perhaps) than usual. He seemed pretty short with Scarlet this morning for no reason (he usually is not). When I mentioned to him later he snapped and said he feels like he just needs some time to himself; to read, write music, etc. Please note he went to work-out this morn sans kids for 2 hours and then took a 2+ hour nap this afternoon. O.k.
I suggested he take a bike ride to get some air and he did. When he came back he seemed in much better spirits and able to function with a good attitude.
It's a worst 'cause I feel he gets a ton o' free time and still has issues...what oh what is the secret formula to his contentedness?
Tuesday July 29, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - IMP is just having a time of it. He just is naughty and miserable and LOUD in his crying. I really can't wait to get him a tich older and through some of this sh*t. It's soooo hard to keep my cool in the face of this one a half year old TERROR. I must admit that it can be funny - but then again after pulling him off the table for the ninth time, it ceases to be all that amusing.
Best Part of the Day - It was the moment that I sat down with my dinner and put in the next DVD of Buffy. The kiddos were bathed and in bed, my parents were out to dinner and I sighed and relaxed.
Best Part of the Day - It was the moment that I sat down with my dinner and put in the next DVD of Buffy. The kiddos were bathed and in bed, my parents were out to dinner and I sighed and relaxed.
Monday July 28, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - No word on the house - just waiting and waiting ........
Also SB used to taking later naps and having a later bedtime with Nana and Papa. So now we must adjust .... a tich of drama from him on these items. But we're working slowly back into the schedule.
Best Part of the Day - SB is such a big boy now! Oh my. I took him to the gym and he walked in the child care with a smile on his face. Then when I picked him up - he walked on out with a smile on his face (after jumping up and down upon seeing my face of course). What an easy joy to take him most places! My Dad had IMP and he got an 'A' for the day - good as gold!
Also SB used to taking later naps and having a later bedtime with Nana and Papa. So now we must adjust .... a tich of drama from him on these items. But we're working slowly back into the schedule.
Best Part of the Day - SB is such a big boy now! Oh my. I took him to the gym and he walked in the child care with a smile on his face. Then when I picked him up - he walked on out with a smile on his face (after jumping up and down upon seeing my face of course). What an easy joy to take him most places! My Dad had IMP and he got an 'A' for the day - good as gold!
Sunday July 27, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - IMP is now on a 5:30 a.m. wake up for some godforsaken reason. Makes a me tired. And the 4 p.m. to 6 p.m. hours o' bitchin' seem to be INCREASING. Shouldn't it be getting better?
Best Part of the Day - So hilarious to watch SB and IMP together - they are like a toddler/pre-school comedy team. Their routines are: Monkey See, Monkey Do; Chase; Run in Circles; Tickle Fight. Should take it on the road.
Best Part of the Day - So hilarious to watch SB and IMP together - they are like a toddler/pre-school comedy team. Their routines are: Monkey See, Monkey Do; Chase; Run in Circles; Tickle Fight. Should take it on the road.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday July 28, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Went to a park/pool with a friend and kiddos. Summer!
Worst Part of the Day-
Stayed up all night starting/finishing The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch. It is an autobiographical Tuesdays With Morrie kinda deal. It is a terribly easy read about a college professor who is swiftly dying of pancreatic cancer (not a good cancer to get.) He has been quite blessed in his short life (prior to the diagnosis): uber thoughtful and caring parents, a wife he absolutely adores, 3 sweet LITTLE kids, and the job of his dreams (he invented virtual reality?!) Tears were streaming down my puffy, insomniac cheeks all night reading page after perfect page of quips, anecdotes and tear-jerking advice from a insightful natural teacher.
When I went to check out the author/patient's blog mentioned in the book I found out he had just passed away on Friday 7/25. Ahhh.
It really is a great book with a solid message from an amazing man, but all I can think about now is death, death, death; making life lesson videos for my kidlets before I die and taking out much more life insurance.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sunday July 27, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Holy healthiest summer diet of any family (excluding Californians and Vermont hippies).
Note:
Breakfast-blueberries, strawberries and oatmeal.
Lunch-roasted veggies from farmers' market, veggie burgers, homemade apple sauce.
PM Snack-fresh peach slices.
Dinner-homemade mashed potatoes, "chicken", steamed broccoli and orange slices.
The kids were both crying/begging for more broc and oranges. I was astounded about how much fiber they chowed down today (somehow avoiding major GI distress--perhaps tomorra). Dessert-lemon ice.
Scarlet met her organic quota today. Preservatives-minimal. Junk food-nada.
Worst Part of the Day-
Went to Target specifically to purchase "big boy potty" for Liam as he is seriously ready to begin official training (and I clearly I can't have him openly pooping on end tables much longer--at least I can't clap when he does that...). Spent the standard 80 bucks at Target and completely forgot to get the dang pee pot. Doh. Will try again tomorrow and see if I can avoid purchasing any of their pretty cool dorm furniture/lamps/throw pillows. They never had that hip stuff when we were in college--only those super crappy cardboard dressers (which I had and thought was soooo collegiate.) Anyhoo, seriously, Target again tomorrow.
Saturday July 26, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Played tennis with my dad. (First time all summer--rusty)
Went swimming at the beach--alone. (First time all summer-very nice)
Took an afternoon nap. (First time all summer--delicious)
Went to B-day party and despite wanting to continue napping and hermit-like behavior DID have fun. (Who knew?)
Worst Part of the Day-
Head was a'hurting in the morn. (hung over?/lightweight?)
Blew off optional/overachieving work this AM. (sick of being Type A?)
Skipped daytime BBQ. (antisocial and a 60 mile drive...possibly not wanting to discuss my situation with cutsie pie healthy couples?)
Friday July 25, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Mom called and said she would LOVE to take the kidlets overnight as she wants to run in a foot race with them tomorrow AM. W00-hoo. We met at a (pretty much) halfway point and had a fairly easy kid exchange. I can now sift through the many piles o' paper and pay bills, etc. I can do what I like!
Worst Part of the Day-
I did not do any bill paying/organizing o' papers. I was feeling a bit wily after new found freedom on a gorgeous Friday eve and called Cuz S. (who is always exemplary on short notice meeting for drinks.) Did ride bike home from drinking session muy tipsy.
Most Gratuitous Part of the Day-
Rode my bike to meet Cuz S. in her hipster 'hood and had super duper fun dishing and chatting (and swilling).
Saturday July 26, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Did spend four hours in the car (on a GORGEOUS day) to pick up SB from Nana-Camp (his week of fun with Nana and Papa is now over). It was a looong trip and my arse was ahurtin'.
Also SB had a little adjustment sleeping at the cottage - but eventually went to snoozeland.
Best Part of the Day - Oh that SB - what a cute. He was sooo excited to see me (and I guess he was pretty dern good for Nana and Papa - they REALLY enjoyed him). Then when we got home, IMP took one look at him and turned and started running. Then SB chased him as they both laughed and laughed. The Reitter Boyz are back.
Also SB had a little adjustment sleeping at the cottage - but eventually went to snoozeland.
Best Part of the Day - Oh that SB - what a cute. He was sooo excited to see me (and I guess he was pretty dern good for Nana and Papa - they REALLY enjoyed him). Then when we got home, IMP took one look at him and turned and started running. Then SB chased him as they both laughed and laughed. The Reitter Boyz are back.
Friday July 25, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Two minutes to the end of a challenging Pilates class (geez - I don't know how people can abduct with the ring they way they do) and my pager goes off - IMP is at it again. Oh man. I was hoping to get 20 minutes of cardio in (aka waste some time before we headed to the playground), but no such luck.
Then he was a real pistol for the rest o' the day.
AND the potential buyers of our house did not like our counter-offer (which really is STILL SO LOW!) So we'll wait the weekend and see if we can come to any conclusion.
Also - don't try to engage my dad in a conversation when he is somewhat drunk and very hungry. Whew - what a toxic combo.
Best Part of the Day - Began Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the tv series). What a LAME-O Best Part of the Day. But it was funny and good (although the fashion is tich dated and it takes a little away from the story - but I'm betting that changes when SMG loses the starlet-required 25 lbs and starts to wear skinny jeans).
Also talked with Cousin Pate' and can't wait for her visit with her squeeze Bill! So excited!
Then he was a real pistol for the rest o' the day.
AND the potential buyers of our house did not like our counter-offer (which really is STILL SO LOW!) So we'll wait the weekend and see if we can come to any conclusion.
Also - don't try to engage my dad in a conversation when he is somewhat drunk and very hungry. Whew - what a toxic combo.
Best Part of the Day - Began Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the tv series). What a LAME-O Best Part of the Day. But it was funny and good (although the fashion is tich dated and it takes a little away from the story - but I'm betting that changes when SMG loses the starlet-required 25 lbs and starts to wear skinny jeans).
Also talked with Cousin Pate' and can't wait for her visit with her squeeze Bill! So excited!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday July 24, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Yep the low-ball offer on the house came in. Soooo - do we accept or counter or refuse (okay so we're not going to refuse). It's a sh*% market and we are going to get SCREWED!!! And now we have to talk about it and talk about it and talk about it .... hating it.
Best Part of the Day - My mom took IMP today and I went to the gym and grocery store by myself. They got home at 1 p.m. He napped until after 4 and then my dad took him for a walk. It was soooo nice to have some down time. That kids needs less a mom and more a party clown. There shall be NO independent play for this one (unless it's doing something naughty or dangerous - then he's more than happy to play by himself. Sigh.)
Best Part of the Day - My mom took IMP today and I went to the gym and grocery store by myself. They got home at 1 p.m. He napped until after 4 and then my dad took him for a walk. It was soooo nice to have some down time. That kids needs less a mom and more a party clown. There shall be NO independent play for this one (unless it's doing something naughty or dangerous - then he's more than happy to play by himself. Sigh.)
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Thursday July 24, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Precocious little girls: Scarlet was making Liam laugh and vice versa while I drove to Lake Park to catch Cale's baseball game. Liam does this grunting while holding his breath move that makes anyone chuckle (it is so strange, but funny). After several times of doing this to an easily entertained audience, Scarlet says to him, "Don't hurt yourself, buddy--you don't want to have a brain accident!" When I asked her what she meant by that she replied "you know, ya told me last week, Mom, that it's rude to say stroke and that you should say brain accident instead." Huh, I don't recall saying that, but it is true.
Worst Part of the Day-
Precocious little girls: On the way to Lake Park I filled 2 cups with water for the road and made my announcement to (mostly Scarlet as Liam will drink water without issue) the kids that we are having water as our bodies need hydration, etc. I ran back in the house to grab my purse and started buckling the kids in their seats. I saw Liam drinking his cup and asked S. where hers went. She said I didn't give one to her. Huh, I thought I brought both cups out together...but I am an airhead when trying to pack up the car so I went back in the house to look. I knew I just filled 2 cups--1 blue, 1 green. There was no cup to be found in the kitchen so I went back to the car and asked S. if she was sure the cup wasn't somewhere in between a seat. On my way back in the house a 2nd time, something blue caught my eye. I saw the blue cup laying on its side in a small puddle of water in the corner of the garage. S. saw me spot it and I asked her again (very sternly) what happened to the cup. She looked me right in the eyes and said, "a little girl who looks just like me and also is wearing this same dress threw it in the corner because she doesn't like water--only juice...but it wasn't me."
Oh My--lanta.
Wednesday July 24, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - I had a real moment of feeling very sorry for myself and very fed up with ... everything. We had all been invited out for drinks and dinner but as the day wore on it became very, very apparent that my parents would be partaking in drinks and dinner and Molly and IMP would be staying home. And it just made me have a fifth grade girl moment of "not fair" and "I NEVER get to do ANYTHING." But really - it just wouldn't have worked out (I could tell this by the way my parents hightailed it out the door without so much of a "so - are you guys coming?" and by the way that IMP was wailing for no reason other than he wanted dinner, bath, movie, bed in that exact order.)
Also IMP had a trek to the playroom at the gym, a trip to the playground, a nice nap, a trip to the pool and a trip to the beach and STILL (yes STILL) was miserable from 5 to 6. I don't get it.
Best Part of the Day - We've now had two viewings by the same couple of our house! And one more showing that the Realtor is very positive about. So we could have a (low ball to be sure) offer soon ....
Also IMP had a trek to the playroom at the gym, a trip to the playground, a nice nap, a trip to the pool and a trip to the beach and STILL (yes STILL) was miserable from 5 to 6. I don't get it.
Best Part of the Day - We've now had two viewings by the same couple of our house! And one more showing that the Realtor is very positive about. So we could have a (low ball to be sure) offer soon ....
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Wednesday July 23, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I received a call from my travel nurse recruiter inquiring about a paycheck from April 4 that I apparently have not cashed. I explained that I haven't cashed any of the checks as it is all direct deposit. She told me "yes, it is, but the first check of any assignment is an actual check." I had an oh my heavens moment and I rushed over to my financial files and there it was--a check for a chunk of change--that I mistakenly thought was merely the receipt of the direct deposit. Woo-hoo! The recruiter ended the conversation making a comment like "wow, most people would've missed that money back in April..." Not when you are flying by the seat of your pants for months on end...plus, most people aren't as loaded as me (heh heh).
Worst Part of the Day-
I was stung by a wasp multiple times!!! In the car. Ahhhh. It hurt and I screamed. It freaked me out. I had just gotten in the car and bam---sting, sting, sting--just when ya least expect it. I screeched and ran out of the car swatting and jumping.
Tuesday July 22, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - I couldn't get motivated to get going today. All last night about every 45 minutes, the IMP would let out a loud cry and then silence. Hating it and it made my REM cycles short out (on the plus side I was recalling some weird dreams). I felt sluggish all day (also might be due to no shower and no exercise). Whateves - it blew.
Best Part of the Day - IMP right down for his nap - no problemo. Had a few naps myself today. Erik reports that SB is doing well and having tons o' fun with Nana and Papa. Also am planning a visit to NC without kiddos to see Erik and his brother and wife (their kiddos will also be gone!) AND we have a showing on our NH house manana. Wish us some luck o' the home sale.
Best Part of the Day - IMP right down for his nap - no problemo. Had a few naps myself today. Erik reports that SB is doing well and having tons o' fun with Nana and Papa. Also am planning a visit to NC without kiddos to see Erik and his brother and wife (their kiddos will also be gone!) AND we have a showing on our NH house manana. Wish us some luck o' the home sale.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Tuesday July 22, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Scarlet and I went to our neighborhood Farmers' Market and it was delightful. We picked out many delish/FRESH items and Scarlet had tons o' fun getting the skinny from each farmer. "Are these organic? We need organic!" she would inform. As we were walking out with our heavy bags of goods we saw a woman sitting on the grass peeling a newly purchased item (it looked like a Granny Smith apple). Scarlet naturally asked what it was and then, "can I try a bite?" The woman gave S. a slice of kohlrabi and S. beamed "I love it. I love farmers' markets." Me too.
Worst Part of the Day-
Peeps, I just have not been sleeping well at all. (My heavens, I don't know what could be bothering me?) It is clear now that it has been 14 nights in a row that I have a classic case of insomnia. It bites. I guess I shouldn't have made fun of insomniacs my whole life long...I just didn't get it. I was a champion sleeper. I could sleep anywhere and at any time. I was on the varsity sleep squad in both high school and college. Now I cannot sleep a wink. I am hurting in the mornings.
Most Profound Part of the Day-
I have had a moment of clarity today (and I am not even a recovering alcoholic...). But I am recovering. It occurred to me that I need to ease up a bit on Will-O and start to truly let some of my emotions (hurt, pain, frustration) go. I had and have very valid reasons for my actions and emotions, but somehow today I was able to see my role in this as well (there's that clarity part) and that it does take 2 to tango, so to speak. Even though Will-O has some things to learn for sure, it is key that I allow him to be, well, himself. I need to trust him and essentially allow him to do/be instead of waiting for him to screw up and then say "ah ha!" (Not that I would be quite that mean--but maybe...) I feel good about this change in perspective.
See--only working 1 job gives me vast free time to philosophize. What will I come up with tomorrow??
Monday July 21, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - We somehow missed the window for IMP's nap and then HE REFUSED TO TAKE ONE. This has not happened with him in one year as I am militant on the sleep thang. It was horrid. The child now refuses to stay in the crib - flinging himself over the rails in 1 and a half year drama. My mom tried, my dad tried, I tired. He's miserable and we're all miserable. Suddenly I find myself in the car with the babe driving around (thinking a. this is what people do with babies under nine months and b. this is one expensive sleep cure as I'm in a SUV) and he's asleep in minutes. I head on back and transfer him to the crib.
Best Part of the Day - I woke up feeling not so tired! Hooray! Made it to the gym for a workout.
Um Will Farrell? Are you out there? Stop making crap like Semi-Pro or I may have to banish your future movies from my queue. Gracias.
Best Part of the Day - I woke up feeling not so tired! Hooray! Made it to the gym for a workout.
Um Will Farrell? Are you out there? Stop making crap like Semi-Pro or I may have to banish your future movies from my queue. Gracias.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Monday July 21, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I found my cell phone in a bag in the trunk of my car (thank the lord).
I had a successful Health Class today. I had the girls give 3-5 minute presentations on an assigned STD. Many exceeded my expectations with their speaking and presenting abilities (they do not always exceed...) Plus it's the one time it is acceptable to hear a room full of teenage girls get up one by one and happily declare, "I have herpes...", "I have genital warts...", "I have syphillis..." Fun times.
Worst Part of the Day-
I tried to watch the movie Funny Games. I knew going in to it that it was "the scariest movie I have ever seen..." (a quote on the movie jacket). I had to stop the movie as I was becoming riddled with anxiety about what was going to happen to the characters. NEVER before have I actually gotten heart palpitations from a rental. I'm getttin old.
Sunday July 20, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I took the kids to a picnic my dad was organizing for our alma matter. It was on a private lake, but also had a pool and a shady picnic area. The kids had a blast running and playing and talking. (Ma lord, does our daughter love to chat it up with EVERYONE! It was sweet as we were leaving and she is saying "goodbye Jan, bye Carl, see you Ron." These people are all in their 60's and S. is on a first name basis. It really is soooo my mom.)
Scarlet almost went off the diving board--not quite there yet.
Worst Part of the Day-
Cannot find my gol diggity cellie!!!!
Saturday July 19, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Today is my mom's 60th birthday and the celebration was an all-day event.
First we met for "sporting events" which included 4 teams of 2 competing in: golf chipping, free throws, jarts, water balloon toss and a kayaking race. Will-O and I were a team--we placed last...(It was a gorgeous day!)
She then prepared a full meal (I know, I know, it's her birthday--but this is what she likes to do, people...) and made a cake and pie from scratch.
All in all, it was a delightful gathering with family and friends (and ice cold libations).
Note: thankfully there were NO sex, drugs or rock n' roll at this party (only easy listening) as her invitation alluded to...whew.
Worst Part of the Day-
Sean's girlfriend, Alli, sliced her foot in the lake after the kayak race and had to go to the ER and get 7 stitches!! (This girl is full of medical mishaps...if can happen, it just may happen to Alli). I felt bad for her.
At the end of the night, I was having an allergy attack so bad that my left eye was about to swell shut and I had the major itchy/sneezies. We had to leave and not stay the night. (That means no sleeping-in and no yummy brunch and organic coffee delivered to my chambers in the morn...wah.)
Friday July 18, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I met up with friends for drinks this eve. We promised ourselves we would be good and "only partially hit it" as we all have major stuff planned for the weekend. (I often find myself declaring life-changing epiphanies at 4am when I am with this bunch...) When I meet up with my friend, Lisa, we tend to laugh until we cry and also just plain ol' cry. It is always highly fun, though.
Worst Part of the Day-
Poopy:
1.) A bummer day on the Will-O front. It is safe to say that our well-intentioned amicable status was taking a day off.
2). (actual poopy) I ran upstairs for a minute and came down to find Liam on top of an end table in the living room. As I descended the stairs I saw that he had ripped off his diaper (this is happening a lot in our meek potty-training attempts) and was holding what looked like Morningstar Farm veggie sausage. (This won't be a good ad spot for those sausages--which I am addicted to...) Of course he had pooped on the table in my 2 minutes of non-observation and was getting a good close look at his output. Ahhh.
Sunday July 20, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Looks rainy again. Hating it. A long morning. IMP refused a morning nap (which I would usually love, but was wanting a nap myself).
Also Sister Sarah annoyed and wanting to leave early so I had to use my slyboots ways to keep her around (hard to be slyboots and watch the 1.5 year old).
Best Part of the Day - Went to lunch with Sister Sarah and it twas fun (hard to find a place open in Dutchy Holland on Sunday though). Later brought IMP to the beach and he had loads of fun in the sandy sand (likes to bury himself in it). Then the storm clouds were gathering (again) and so we headed back to the cottage only to have it clear up minutes later. Sigh, sigh. Tomorrow is another day.
Also Sister Sarah annoyed and wanting to leave early so I had to use my slyboots ways to keep her around (hard to be slyboots and watch the 1.5 year old).
Best Part of the Day - Went to lunch with Sister Sarah and it twas fun (hard to find a place open in Dutchy Holland on Sunday though). Later brought IMP to the beach and he had loads of fun in the sandy sand (likes to bury himself in it). Then the storm clouds were gathering (again) and so we headed back to the cottage only to have it clear up minutes later. Sigh, sigh. Tomorrow is another day.
Saturday July 19, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Still feeling exhausted. But rallying. Also rain, rain and more rain. And muggy. My hair no likey.
Best Part of the Day - Sarah and I went to the new Batman movie and it was a fun, rainy day diversion. Gigi watched the IMP and when we returned home he was in snoozeland. Also had a nice and yummy dinner on the porch after IMP went to bed.
NOTE - at this dinner there was some frank conversation and Sister Sarah got her feelings hurt (not by me this time). I felt bad for her, but also wanted her to stand up for herself in a rational, non-emotional way and just worry about what makes HER happy.
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABS!!! WON'T SAY HOW OLD BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE IT. YOU LOOK MARVELOUS!!!
Best Part of the Day - Sarah and I went to the new Batman movie and it was a fun, rainy day diversion. Gigi watched the IMP and when we returned home he was in snoozeland. Also had a nice and yummy dinner on the porch after IMP went to bed.
NOTE - at this dinner there was some frank conversation and Sister Sarah got her feelings hurt (not by me this time). I felt bad for her, but also wanted her to stand up for herself in a rational, non-emotional way and just worry about what makes HER happy.
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABS!!! WON'T SAY HOW OLD BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE IT. YOU LOOK MARVELOUS!!!
Friday July 18, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Sooo tired from the whole trip to Bloomington. It was worth it - but I am exhausted. I thought for sure (just for some irony from the Universe) that IMP would sleep until 8:30 a.m. EST, but no such luck. Man o man - I just felt like it was painful to get off the couch.
Am also really missing the ole SB (who is with Nana and Papa in Ft. Wayne). If both are gone, I don't actively miss them, but having IMP here and SB not ... it's kind of sad. So I'm trying to make the most of IMP's and my "alone" time together. Get yur ass off the couch, grrrrl.
Best Part of the Day - Sister Sarah arrived! She did leave me to go party briefly (with our parents and Long Island Ice Teas no less - can this be a good thing?) But then she returned with dinner and watched a really, really lowbrow (that is a nice way of saying trashy) reality tv show that I am presently obsessed with.
Am also really missing the ole SB (who is with Nana and Papa in Ft. Wayne). If both are gone, I don't actively miss them, but having IMP here and SB not ... it's kind of sad. So I'm trying to make the most of IMP's and my "alone" time together. Get yur ass off the couch, grrrrl.
Best Part of the Day - Sister Sarah arrived! She did leave me to go party briefly (with our parents and Long Island Ice Teas no less - can this be a good thing?) But then she returned with dinner and watched a really, really lowbrow (that is a nice way of saying trashy) reality tv show that I am presently obsessed with.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday July 17, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
1). I went to see my magician/guru/massage therapist today and I left relaxed, rejuvenated and validated (that I am doing the right damn thing). She said after the session "I kept seeing the words: let the chips fall where they may while I was working on you. (She also mentioned she could sense a ball of something stuck in my throat. Ah yes, that would be my pervasive nausea/ball of (sadness) emotion working its way up from my heart.
2). Also went to parental home this eve as my mom had planned and arranged a party for the neighborhood kids/families. To be specific it was a Make A Stepping Stone Party. The kids also painted flower pots and did face painting. It was a great turnout (perhaps 'cause I guessed it would be just me and the 2 kids...) Tons of kids and parents came and created (and ate and played). It was highly enjoyable to simply go somewhere and have the arts n' crafts all laid out for ya. Also I was pleased with my final product of beach on a stepping stone.
Worst Part of the Day-
Miscommunication abounds about this darn Thursday(and this time not with Will-O)...
1). I rushed Scarlet to get to her preschool/summer camp this morning as I knew they had a field trip today. We got there in the nick of time and then the teacher looked at me and said "You know the field trip is next Thursday." Of course I knew that.
2). I was atypically 10 minutes early for my 10am massage so I was pleased to just sit outside in the perfect sunshine and wait for my massage therapist to arrive. I waited about 15 minutes and then called her and she said "Oh, you are right as I look at my calendar, but for some reason I had it in my mind that you were next Thurdsay--I'm on my way."
1). I went to see my magician/guru/massage therapist today and I left relaxed, rejuvenated and validated (that I am doing the right damn thing). She said after the session "I kept seeing the words: let the chips fall where they may while I was working on you. (She also mentioned she could sense a ball of something stuck in my throat. Ah yes, that would be my pervasive nausea/ball of (sadness) emotion working its way up from my heart.
2). Also went to parental home this eve as my mom had planned and arranged a party for the neighborhood kids/families. To be specific it was a Make A Stepping Stone Party. The kids also painted flower pots and did face painting. It was a great turnout (perhaps 'cause I guessed it would be just me and the 2 kids...) Tons of kids and parents came and created (and ate and played). It was highly enjoyable to simply go somewhere and have the arts n' crafts all laid out for ya. Also I was pleased with my final product of beach on a stepping stone.
Worst Part of the Day-
Miscommunication abounds about this darn Thursday(and this time not with Will-O)...
1). I rushed Scarlet to get to her preschool/summer camp this morning as I knew they had a field trip today. We got there in the nick of time and then the teacher looked at me and said "You know the field trip is next Thursday." Of course I knew that.
2). I was atypically 10 minutes early for my 10am massage so I was pleased to just sit outside in the perfect sunshine and wait for my massage therapist to arrive. I waited about 15 minutes and then called her and she said "Oh, you are right as I look at my calendar, but for some reason I had it in my mind that you were next Thurdsay--I'm on my way."
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Thursday July 17, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Is the horse beaten to dead yet? 4:58 a.m. CST both boyz are up and att 'em. YOU MUST BE KIDDING ME. AAARRRGGGHHH.
Also I got a later start than I wanted to after a somewhat stressful restaurant lunch with nana, papa, Jen, and all the kidz. At one point IMP drank dressing and then proceeded to throw dirt from a plant all over himself and the floor. Uh OH, indeed. SB is throwing a fit for no apparent reason (other than being hungry.) On the way to the bathroom for the second time (to wash dirt filled hands) the waitress asked "do you need anything?" And I said "yes, a nanny."
But I do have to say that both boyz ate very well (including the shot o' dressing) and if it had been Erik and I doing the "we've only got a short window lunch", it probably would have been fine. It's just others like a leisurely lunch (and I do too!)
I left SB with nana and papa and he is still a bit off and it made me feel a bit anxious to leave him. But I'm sure he will be fine and have lots of fun (hopefully).
Finally, during a stop at a gas station to buy some sugar to keep me awake on the drive back to Michigan a guy in front of me bought about ten lottery tickets that EACH had to be manually numbered or some such nonsense. I wanted to shake him and say "YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN, I NEED SUGAR NOW AND I HAVE TO GET ON THE ROAD BEFORE IMP DESTROYS THE PLACE." Sigh.
Best Part of the Day -
Nana made some sort of Austrian crepe that was pretty dern good - and it was so fun for SB and I to watch her make them.
We went to the Discovery Children's Museum and the boyz were super, super good. When it was time to go I said to SB "time to go bye bye" and he just followed me out. Hooray.
I made it back to Michigan, IMP went right to snoozeland (after a huge dinner of course) and I am soon to follow. Looking forward to a nap manana.
Also I got a later start than I wanted to after a somewhat stressful restaurant lunch with nana, papa, Jen, and all the kidz. At one point IMP drank dressing and then proceeded to throw dirt from a plant all over himself and the floor. Uh OH, indeed. SB is throwing a fit for no apparent reason (other than being hungry.) On the way to the bathroom for the second time (to wash dirt filled hands) the waitress asked "do you need anything?" And I said "yes, a nanny."
But I do have to say that both boyz ate very well (including the shot o' dressing) and if it had been Erik and I doing the "we've only got a short window lunch", it probably would have been fine. It's just others like a leisurely lunch (and I do too!)
I left SB with nana and papa and he is still a bit off and it made me feel a bit anxious to leave him. But I'm sure he will be fine and have lots of fun (hopefully).
Finally, during a stop at a gas station to buy some sugar to keep me awake on the drive back to Michigan a guy in front of me bought about ten lottery tickets that EACH had to be manually numbered or some such nonsense. I wanted to shake him and say "YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WIN, I NEED SUGAR NOW AND I HAVE TO GET ON THE ROAD BEFORE IMP DESTROYS THE PLACE." Sigh.
Best Part of the Day -
Nana made some sort of Austrian crepe that was pretty dern good - and it was so fun for SB and I to watch her make them.
We went to the Discovery Children's Museum and the boyz were super, super good. When it was time to go I said to SB "time to go bye bye" and he just followed me out. Hooray.
I made it back to Michigan, IMP went right to snoozeland (after a huge dinner of course) and I am soon to follow. Looking forward to a nap manana.
Wednesday July 16, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - I'd say it was something about the boyz (again) waking up at 5 a.m. Trying to keep them quiet which is like trying to .... well like trying to keep a 1.5 year old and almost three year old quiet. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE. And then it just leads to extreme tiredness on my and the boyz part. Not to mention that SB is having a moment that is lasting hours - he is just "off" and I'm thinking maybe I've placed too much transition in his young life. Well kiddo - just wait until we move to NC.
Best Part of the Day - We brought the kiddos to the zoo and the water park and much fun was had by all. The cousins all got along so well - the older ones were all so helpful and loving and sweet.
I did not put myself through the trauma and drama of having SB and IMP at the family meal (seriously - my sister-in-law has put on a family dinner since her oldest was BORN! It's not natural. There also excellent eaters - fish, souffle, exotic foods like olives? Bring it on.) So I fed my babies early and got them bathed and then enjoyed a leisurely, child free dinner (are all my best parts child free as of late??) And then had a hilarious time watching my sister-in-law with her mom - oh my, are mother/daughter relationships all the same or what? And then we three had another hilarious conversation about family. It was really fun.
Best Part of the Day - We brought the kiddos to the zoo and the water park and much fun was had by all. The cousins all got along so well - the older ones were all so helpful and loving and sweet.
I did not put myself through the trauma and drama of having SB and IMP at the family meal (seriously - my sister-in-law has put on a family dinner since her oldest was BORN! It's not natural. There also excellent eaters - fish, souffle, exotic foods like olives? Bring it on.) So I fed my babies early and got them bathed and then enjoyed a leisurely, child free dinner (are all my best parts child free as of late??) And then had a hilarious time watching my sister-in-law with her mom - oh my, are mother/daughter relationships all the same or what? And then we three had another hilarious conversation about family. It was really fun.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Wednesday July 16, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
When I got home from work around 3pm (with Scarlet in tow from her summer day camp), Will-O and Liam were out. I received a call saying they were at Will-O's mom's and would stay there through dinner and be home by "bath time". It was luxurious to have a little change of pace. We had a successful quiet time: I read my book (The Book Thief--I recommend!) and Scarlet flipped through her kid magazines, colored and then of course watched PBS Kids. We did this for a long while--it was awesome. Is this what I get to look forward to with self-sufficient kids? Love it.
Worst Part of the Day-
I could be going through a hormonal time...I purchased and ate TONS of candy (odd) and ate and ate until it was gone this eve. I haven't done that in well over 10 years. (Seriously, it was a lot). I don't think I did it out of emotional pain (think my boyfriend dumped me and now I scarf down a tub of ice cream--wah), but I don't know why I would crave such crappy crap. Diabetes, here I come. And rotten teeth...so attractive.
Tuesday July 15, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Due to the time change (IL is on Central time, MI is on Eastern time), both boyz were up and att 'em at 5 a.m. CST. I kept them locked in the room until 6 a.m. but then had to take them downstairs were they proceeded to laugh loudly, stomp loudly, run loudly, hell I think they were breathing loudly. It was just too hard to keep 'em quiet.
Also had a moment this evening when I thought I really was going to just throw in the towel (who is there to give said towel to, however?) I took the boyz to their cousin's outdoor swim meet and ..... no good. NO GOOD. Had to take them home after about 40 minutes. Whew.
Best Part of the Day - Had a fun day at the pool with the cousins - they have a kiddie pool which was soooo nice.
Also had a leisurely meal with everyone (my kiddos were in bed). Good food, good wine and fun conversation.
Also had a moment this evening when I thought I really was going to just throw in the towel (who is there to give said towel to, however?) I took the boyz to their cousin's outdoor swim meet and ..... no good. NO GOOD. Had to take them home after about 40 minutes. Whew.
Best Part of the Day - Had a fun day at the pool with the cousins - they have a kiddie pool which was soooo nice.
Also had a leisurely meal with everyone (my kiddos were in bed). Good food, good wine and fun conversation.
Monday July 14, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - The car travel to Bloomington, IL (to see Erik's sister's family and parents) was kind of sucky. I tried to plan it so the two boyz would nap - but they only slept for about 45 minutes. Then after we arrived, we had mandatory sit down dinner and my boyz ... well actually just SB was not feelin' it (to say the least).
Best Part of the Day - Gigi took the boyz to the park so I could shower and park at my leisure. Sooo nice.
Also so great to make it to Bloomington. No wonder people have nine years olds and toddlers - their cousins are watching over them and playing with them all the time! Wonderful (but not enough to make me want a baby in five years).
Best Part of the Day - Gigi took the boyz to the park so I could shower and park at my leisure. Sooo nice.
Also so great to make it to Bloomington. No wonder people have nine years olds and toddlers - their cousins are watching over them and playing with them all the time! Wonderful (but not enough to make me want a baby in five years).
Tuesday July 15, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Liam, Scarlet and I had a post-bath, p.j.-clad wrestle session on the bed tonight before bed. (I am not typically the wrestling type). It was hilarious to see Liam trying to tackle and then scare Scarlet as if he were a very scary monster boy.
Worst Part of the Day-
Will-O and I were to sit down and figure out the calendar in regards to childcare and assigned days and work and social time, etc. It was difficult to find a time without child interruptions and then when the kids were down we were both too exhausted to think. It seemed quite dorky to have to assign days to be with/without kids, but I am not sure another way can be found that gives equality to all (parties/aspects). Open to suggestions...
Liam, Scarlet and I had a post-bath, p.j.-clad wrestle session on the bed tonight before bed. (I am not typically the wrestling type). It was hilarious to see Liam trying to tackle and then scare Scarlet as if he were a very scary monster boy.
Worst Part of the Day-
Will-O and I were to sit down and figure out the calendar in regards to childcare and assigned days and work and social time, etc. It was difficult to find a time without child interruptions and then when the kids were down we were both too exhausted to think. It seemed quite dorky to have to assign days to be with/without kids, but I am not sure another way can be found that gives equality to all (parties/aspects). Open to suggestions...
Monday July 14, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
A phonecall: I received a voicemail from Cousin Kel this afternoon stating that she and kids and friends were headed to a pool very near our home. I usually would put Liam down for his nap at about the time I heard the message, but I thought let's do it. (All in the name of summertime fun!) So I discovered this great pool and park that is only 19 blocks away! It has an ideal wading pool for the little ones to endlessly trudge through and a crazy water slide/huge pool for the bigguns.
Impromtu works again.
Worst Part of the Day-
A phonecall: I received a voicemail from Will-O that he would be late and in fact would not be able to be home tonight as planned. (The only time I MUST work is Monday eves...) I had to scramble to find a sitter...(thank you, G-Ma Sally!) I do not love last minute begging!!!
A phonecall: I received a voicemail from Cousin Kel this afternoon stating that she and kids and friends were headed to a pool very near our home. I usually would put Liam down for his nap at about the time I heard the message, but I thought let's do it. (All in the name of summertime fun!) So I discovered this great pool and park that is only 19 blocks away! It has an ideal wading pool for the little ones to endlessly trudge through and a crazy water slide/huge pool for the bigguns.
Impromtu works again.
Worst Part of the Day-
A phonecall: I received a voicemail from Will-O that he would be late and in fact would not be able to be home tonight as planned. (The only time I MUST work is Monday eves...) I had to scramble to find a sitter...(thank you, G-Ma Sally!) I do not love last minute begging!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Sunday July 13, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I took the kiddos (solo) to the beach just down the street from my parent's home. It was delightful and I felt for the first time summer is certainly here. (Yes, I know it is half over...I just haven't yet been experiencing much summertime fun...)
We were the only ones at the beach today (there were some high winds!). The kids literally frolicked in the waves (seriously, it was windy), built and then crushed a sandcastle--all in all a ton of smiling was going on at this beach. (I must say Liam is a natural water-lover and wants to just dive in the water--eeek.)
At one point the kids sat shoulder to shoulder on the beach and looked out at the water contentedly for minutes and minutes. As if they knew they should stare at the natural beauty and share the moment together. Little loves.
Worst Part of the Day-
I am not sure if I know the difference between a hornet and a wasp, but I do know Scarlet was stung twice by one of them on our way home from the park. She screamed her head off (so I knew it hurt like the dickens) and she even bled a bit from each area of attack. We ran right into the house and I made a little paste out baking soda and water (I know this is a bee sting home remedy and really didn't know what else to do...) and globbed it on the affected areas and it took the sting away immediately. Whew. I felt so bad for my little dear.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Saturday July 12, 2008
Worst Part of the Day-
My parents have the kids overnight so I can--ahhhh, work and clean my home. I would kill for a nap and would love see an independent flick at the Oriental Theater...one day.
After many hours of getting stuff done (as the responsible one...), I met out some peeps at a bar that has fantastic vegetarian fare. It was fun to swill a few ice cold High Lifes and talk and laugh about my future match.com profile (kidding).
Sunday July 13, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Um - I am BEAT!!! Many luscious cocktails (ginger martinis, Bellini's, blackberry vodka drinks) and four hours of sleep later .... not feeling so peppy. Ready for BED.
Best Part of the Day - Loved seeing the pals again this manana. We tried to come up with a plan as to when we can do it all again. Can't wait.
Also very fun to see Sister Sarah upon my arrival back in Michigan and the boyz were super sweet as well. Sigh - now it's just TIME FOR BED.
Best Part of the Day - Loved seeing the pals again this manana. We tried to come up with a plan as to when we can do it all again. Can't wait.
Also very fun to see Sister Sarah upon my arrival back in Michigan and the boyz were super sweet as well. Sigh - now it's just TIME FOR BED.
Saturday July 12, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Up in a grog from not sleeping (see yesterday's blog) and SB has a bit of a temp and is wanting to cuddle with mama. Porbrecito! I had to peel him off me to leave. Ugh. Luckily Sister Sarah and Gigi were right there to cuddle him.
Also very disheartening to hear that so many friends are having marital issues. It just all seems so HARD at times.
Best Part of the Day - It was grand. Met Jill and Amy early in Chicago and we walked, talked and had coffee. It was sooo relaxing and fun. Then met up with seven other college amigas for lunch. Then off for more drinks, readying for dinner, cocktails, dinner and then slumber party at the Ritz (yes the Ritz. We are so mature and fancy now that we are old.) It was all so much fun and I HATED the night to end. I think it is so excellent that we could all get together.
Also very disheartening to hear that so many friends are having marital issues. It just all seems so HARD at times.
Best Part of the Day - It was grand. Met Jill and Amy early in Chicago and we walked, talked and had coffee. It was sooo relaxing and fun. Then met up with seven other college amigas for lunch. Then off for more drinks, readying for dinner, cocktails, dinner and then slumber party at the Ritz (yes the Ritz. We are so mature and fancy now that we are old.) It was all so much fun and I HATED the night to end. I think it is so excellent that we could all get together.
Friday July 11, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Leaving tomorrow for a college reunion evening o' fun in Chicago and I kept waking up every hour and a half. Sucky.
Best Part of the Day - Happy Birthday Dad! Sweet, sweet 66. We had a babysitter come to stay with the boyz (she was sweet and well spoken and seems so lovely! She actually babysat for Cousin Kristen once before - here's the story. Said babysitter (Izzie) is walking around Denver wearing a Macatawa t-shirt and Cousin Kristen (of course) rushes her and says "do you stay at Macatawa? My aunt does too!" Then Cousin Kristen (of course) gets her cell and has her over to babysit.) Anyways - we have a lovely, lovely evening out (just my parents and I) for dad's b-day. Good food, good conversation and good desserts. Yummy.
Best Part of the Day - Happy Birthday Dad! Sweet, sweet 66. We had a babysitter come to stay with the boyz (she was sweet and well spoken and seems so lovely! She actually babysat for Cousin Kristen once before - here's the story. Said babysitter (Izzie) is walking around Denver wearing a Macatawa t-shirt and Cousin Kristen (of course) rushes her and says "do you stay at Macatawa? My aunt does too!" Then Cousin Kristen (of course) gets her cell and has her over to babysit.) Anyways - we have a lovely, lovely evening out (just my parents and I) for dad's b-day. Good food, good conversation and good desserts. Yummy.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Friday July 11, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
1.) Had a good talk with "Cousin" Pate and a few other friends. It helped. (Irarely seem to connect via phone with these peeps...)
2). Watched Dateline this eve. Sheesh. This episode was about murder (of course), but more specifically couples with marital issues and 2 dead wives at the bloody hands of the respective husbands. (At least there is no homicide around this place!) It was divine to sit and watch. I have not watched an hour of t.v. in months and months.
Worst Part of the Day-
I started to feel a bit OVERWHELMED in the afternoon. The house was in a shambles, the backyard had a Mississippi front yard feel with toys and crap strewn everywhere...and then I noticed that I looked a bit like an insane homeless woman. I may need a few moments to ready myself one of these days.
Funniest Part of the Day-
Scarlet inquired about death and dying and what happens when one dies. I started in very scientifically with the heart stopping, etc., but she wanted much more. I then touched on the physical body vs. the soul and then made a statement that different people have different beliefs on what happens to the soul. This really intrigued her and I went on to give a few examples: heaven, clouds, and energy ball, ghost. I even explained a child-version of reincarnation and said a human soul could go into an animal body and vice versa. To this Scarlet smiled and said, "Are you pulling my leg?" No, I said. Some people think their loved one is now a dog and so on. Scarlet replied, "No way, that's too silly."
Maybe the church-going with G-Ma Barbie is rubbing off...ha.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Thursday July 10, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - SB seems to be starting to resist his nap. HORRORS! But the real problemo is that the kiddos still NEEDS this nap. Uh oh. Will try just putting him down a little later from now on. He also is pushing the book reading agenda (which actually makes me smile - I've been WAITING for this!)
Best Part of the Day - Gigi took the boyz to the playground for several hours and I had a child-care free workout and then a pedicure (complete with fancy coffee drink) that made me feel very, very relaxed (full of celeb gossip magazines and eye closings). What a treat.
Best Part of the Day - Gigi took the boyz to the playground for several hours and I had a child-care free workout and then a pedicure (complete with fancy coffee drink) that made me feel very, very relaxed (full of celeb gossip magazines and eye closings). What a treat.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Thursday July 10, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
My mom came over and helped me do a backyard project. (All of one sudden I am serious home project mode. A laborious way to distract myself, perhaps...) It was awesome having a helper who was enthusiastic (to say the least). What took me all last summer to complete (solo), we did today in just over an hour. Zoinks.
Worst Part of the Day-
When Scarlet hangs around older kids, say 8-12 years-old, she always comes away with the experience acting like a sassy, slightly smart-mouthed grade schooler. It is clear she is doing an ingenious job of method acting, but it is highly annoying for me to witness. At one point I told her she would lose a privilege if she didn't lose the attitude (my lord, she's 4!), she said with the well-studied smirk of a 4th grader, "Good, I don't want my stuffed animals anyways--they're babyish..." OMG.
Wednesday July 9, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I had a guy come to look at our garage door that needs fixing. I thought he was just going to quote a price, but instead her fixed it...for FREE. He said "well we put the door in, so we should have to fix it." Yeah, but that was two years ago. Woo-hoo.
Worst Part of the Day-
I had a fleeting moment of anger/frustration about this whole separation deal. I thought "Why can't you (we, I) just be normal?" I don't think I can talk about it much more today.
Wednesday July 9, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Awoken at midnight to a feverish and yelling IMP. Again, the child cannot be comforted unless attached as an appendage to his mama. When the fever broke at about 4 a.m. there was a literal puddle of sweat on my bed. Poor thang. But I feel (hope?) that this was the last fever and the last midnight fever outbreak.
Best Part of the Day - While headed home from my workout class, I was speeding down 32nd Street. I thought to myself "man, I probably should slow down. There's no rush. But then again, I haven't seen a cop on this street all summer." Seriously I was thinking this when a white car passed me going the opposite direction flashing it's lights five times. Huh. Is that not the universal signal for "COP AHEAD SLOW YOUR ASS DOWN." So I slow down and right around the bend .... a cop. Heh heh. And I swear he gave me a look like "you won this time. But watch out!" (But THAT is probably all in my head.) So thank you Good Samaritan!!
Best Part of the Day - While headed home from my workout class, I was speeding down 32nd Street. I thought to myself "man, I probably should slow down. There's no rush. But then again, I haven't seen a cop on this street all summer." Seriously I was thinking this when a white car passed me going the opposite direction flashing it's lights five times. Huh. Is that not the universal signal for "COP AHEAD SLOW YOUR ASS DOWN." So I slow down and right around the bend .... a cop. Heh heh. And I swear he gave me a look like "you won this time. But watch out!" (But THAT is probably all in my head.) So thank you Good Samaritan!!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Tuesday July 8, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Reading Megan's blog. I must have been in shock when I first read it because I just processed the facts. As the day wore on, I felt sadder and sadder about it. Not in a "they shouldn't be doing this" way - but just more in a "sad about it all" way. I always loved Billy and Megan both apart and together. But I also know that Megan is no quitter and there is always more to relationships than meets the eye. I did talk to Megan on the phone yesterday, but am needing to meet in person ASAP. Milwaukee here we come (soon).
Best Part of the Day - Back feels better. IMP seems to be feeling better. The show Bridezillas makes me feel better about myself (isn't that the effect of most reality shows?)
Best Part of the Day - Back feels better. IMP seems to be feeling better. The show Bridezillas makes me feel better about myself (isn't that the effect of most reality shows?)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Tuesday July 8, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Supportive and important talks with a few family members and friends. I am feeling as good as possible about my life changing (extreme) decision.
Worst Part of the Day-
It feels like I have a hard ball stuck in my left chest region. It is still surreal to actually speak the words "...we are separating..." It is strange to be a titch concerned (keenly aware) about someone else's reaction to my news.
And I still have a ton of calls to make. It is odd to be calling people with news like this.
Monday July 7, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Up all night with a feverish IMP who could only sleep while attached to me. So hot and sweaty and le miserable. Pobrecito - the fever is strange. The Motrin kicks in after about 45 minutes to 90 minutes and he is cool and acting normal, then four hours pass, fever comes again and he is lethargic. Odd. I did make it to my workout class and may have messed up my back even more. Hooray.
Best Part of the Day - My mom entertained the boyz from 4:45 to 6:10 p.m. while I firmed up plans for the college reunion evening in Chicago this coming Saturday. Whoo hoo - can't wait. It has been YEARS since I've seen some of these lasses - should be fun (and since we all get buzzed after about three beers, might be cheap, easy and early. But hopefully not!)
Also trying to firm up plans to see Erik's parents, sister and family. Should be a cluster, but hopefully fun.
Best Part of the Day - My mom entertained the boyz from 4:45 to 6:10 p.m. while I firmed up plans for the college reunion evening in Chicago this coming Saturday. Whoo hoo - can't wait. It has been YEARS since I've seen some of these lasses - should be fun (and since we all get buzzed after about three beers, might be cheap, easy and early. But hopefully not!)
Also trying to firm up plans to see Erik's parents, sister and family. Should be a cluster, but hopefully fun.
Monday July 7, 2008
Get ready. Yes, it's true:
Will-O and I have decided to announce our amicable separation as husband and wife. (This is clearly not workin for us...) Hopefully our version of separation will challenge the notions of most as we are making this move out of a place of love and maturity--ultimately seeking peace and emotional health. (I am so pleased we never claimed to be traditional--whew...) Do not envision screaming matches and a big pile of clothes being tossed out a window...think along the lines of Bruce Willis and Demi Moore--without the breast implants or 20 years younger beau (damn).
In the best interest of our best selves as well as the kids we plan to move forward without anger or resentment or mumbling under one's breath. We want to be friends and put an end to the large pile of tension that is suffocating us. We plan to actively co-parent and continue holidays and birthdays and vacations together as a family unit--we simply cannot be partners and share a domicile at this time.
It is a good thing, it is sad, it is emotional. I believe it is positive...cleansing exhale...I may spontaneously throw up. It is what it is.
Best Part of the Day-
The unconditional support of family/friends. Wow. (My mom being utterly '70's cool through it all...)
I am pleased it is not 1856.
I am not scared.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Sunday July 6, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
After buying a box of frozen mini-pancakes for a whopping $1.80, Scarlet beams and says, "I can't believe how lucky I am! Thank you, Best Mom ever!" Please do not let her know that the best moms ever usually make the pancakes from scratch...heh heh heh.
(Superficial) Worst Part of the Day-
I still do not have anyone's phone numbers programmed in my latest cell phone. This fact has led me to make the least amount of calls possible over the past 2 weeks. I know very few phone numbers by heart these days. (Now that I am no longer working 80 hours/week) I really do want to make some damn calls!!!
(Real) Worst Part of the Day-
My marriage has seen sunnier times.
Saturday July 5, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
My co-worker buds had a little gathering for me (albeit during the madness of the ER) as it was my last shift today!!! Woo-hoo. I really did enjoy myself and met some quality peeps. It is not a moment too soon as I am feeling low Mommy-esteem after the Scarlet spanking incident...I am excited to get back on the kid scene more. (It does feel good to follow through on what I said I would do...check off the list: complete travel RN assignment in 2008).
Worst Part of the Day-
Sometimes I don't even want to hear myself...but here goes: it was a bummer that I had to get up with the kids after my 12 ER hours yesterday and before my 12 hours today. I feel like I am very clear on what I need to happen. It is a downer when it still doesn't happen.
Friday July 4, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I got to sleep in until 8:30am!!! Will-O remains in Chicago and the kids slept over at my parents', so I had time to rest and relax prior to my 12 hours o' holiday fun at the ER. I took a shower, put on make-up, did my hair AND ate before work today--unheard of. (Divine).
Worst Part of the Day-
I got a call from Will-O at the ER at around 8:30pm reporting the kids were home (my parents had taken them to a 4th party on a lake ALL day) and Scarlet was missing me and needing a 'goodnight' talk. I talked to her briefly and could tell she was fragile and EXHUASTED. I then stressed to Will-O to just be sensitive to her as she is severely over-tired as she has had a social calendar that competes with my mom's this week.
Much to my dismay (horror), it turns out after Will-O read Scarlet numerous book and tried to coddle her down, she went "insane" (i.e. tired) and Will-O ended taking her basket of toys out of her room (our standard) and then even yelled at her spanked her!!!! Hello, we do not yell or spank in this house...not good.
Thursday July 3, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
I took the kiddos and headed to my parents for a din and then fireworks as Brother Mike remains in town and Will-O is in Chicago. It is (almost) always VERY relaxing to be at their house. It seems like time moves slower there--there is a real small town feel to their neighborhood as little kids are all out playing in yards...the minute we pull in to the driveway Scarlet runs down the street to check-in on her O-Town buds. So enjoyable to sit on the deck and have yummy food and drink delivered right to me. Who ever said you can't go home, just doesn't know this place.
Worst Part of the Day-
We were planning on getting new flooring in August in our dining room. Today I had literally 1 hour free prior to picking the kids up and heading to my parents'. Instead of being normal and just reading a book or taking a nap in that hour, I decided to peek under the existing (peed on 100 times and pooped on once) carpeting to check on the hardwood floor status. I was on a rampage as my quick peek turned into me ripping out the entirety of the carpet (all done in while wearing a dress--odd). I have cuts and small puncture wounds all over my limbs. It was an undertaking.
Sunday July 6, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - IMP is beat today - I don't know if was too much time in the sun, missing his morning nap or just a little cold. But he is lethargic and not himself. I hope he is okay ....
Best Part of the Day - My parents and I took the boyz to the pool. They were pretty good - just hanging out on the first step and splashing away. We had a nice lunch there (IMP did fall asleep in my arms just prior to lunch which is not really like him at this point, but did rally to eat lunch.) All in all it was a fun morning/afternoon.
Best Part of the Day - My parents and I took the boyz to the pool. They were pretty good - just hanging out on the first step and splashing away. We had a nice lunch there (IMP did fall asleep in my arms just prior to lunch which is not really like him at this point, but did rally to eat lunch.) All in all it was a fun morning/afternoon.
Saturday July 5, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Back feels worse after yoga and three mile walk. Hating this - it really is hurting.
Also am tired of inane and obvious questions being posed to me. Must try to remain calm.
Best Part of the Day - For the second day in a row my mom and I walked the boyz to the playground and it was fun, fun, fun. Also there are tons of fun peeps around this weekend to hang out with. The cottage definitely has a good energy about it with all the fun families and kiddos running wild.
Also am tired of inane and obvious questions being posed to me. Must try to remain calm.
Best Part of the Day - For the second day in a row my mom and I walked the boyz to the playground and it was fun, fun, fun. Also there are tons of fun peeps around this weekend to hang out with. The cottage definitely has a good energy about it with all the fun families and kiddos running wild.
Friday July 4, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - I have a twinge in my lower back (left side) that seems to have become chronic. It hurts to bend (and oh my do I bend minutely with the chitlins). I'm hoping to do a yoga class tomorrow and make it go away. Here's hoping.
Also a weird vibe around the cottage area - everyone has their ENTIRE extended family staying and it is so fun and energetic ... but it makes me wish my siblings, cousins, aunts and uncles were all around.
Best Part of the Day - I didn't want to - but my mom talked me into heading down (10 feet) to watch the fireworks and it was a cool, lovely evening and the fireworks were neat-o.
Also a weird vibe around the cottage area - everyone has their ENTIRE extended family staying and it is so fun and energetic ... but it makes me wish my siblings, cousins, aunts and uncles were all around.
Best Part of the Day - I didn't want to - but my mom talked me into heading down (10 feet) to watch the fireworks and it was a cool, lovely evening and the fireworks were neat-o.
Friday, July 4, 2008
Thursday July 3, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - Trying to corral the boyz into the car while navigating the parking lot made me miss my garage and minivan. Anxiety! regarding having them zig zag in dreamland while a car bears down on them. UGH.
Best Part of the Day - A nap. A long n' lovely nap.
Also a hilarious phone conversation with Erik regarding a sweet young thang friending him on his facebook account (which I created by the way). He was sooo interested as he had no idea who it could be. I told him he clearly has "still got it." (note - it turned out to be his brother's babysitter who probably just wants a job with us. heh heh.)
Best Part of the Day - A nap. A long n' lovely nap.
Also a hilarious phone conversation with Erik regarding a sweet young thang friending him on his facebook account (which I created by the way). He was sooo interested as he had no idea who it could be. I told him he clearly has "still got it." (note - it turned out to be his brother's babysitter who probably just wants a job with us. heh heh.)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Wednesday July 2, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Watching PBS Science Nova as I type. Oh my--I never knew I was a science loving geek! Loving it.
Worst Part of the Day-
Will-O, Will-O, Will-O.
Tuesday July 1, 2008
Best Part of the Day-
Whew. After working it (13 long ones, doh) in the ER, I mustered up energy from God's knows where and headed straight to the lake to catch Brother Mike's (ahem, Surf Monster's) show at Summerfest. It was good to be out and see some family/friends...ahhh. Also good to have Scarlet run into my arms (a titch on the dramatic side) when she saw me after our 1 day of being apart.
Worst Part of the Day-
My golly I would've loved to just sit and talk and swill some drinks at Summerfest, I spent some time chasing my wild child around. Always on duty.
Wednesday July 2, 2008
Best Part of the Day - While GiGi babysat the boyz, Cousin Kristen and I had a long and leisurely child free lunch here in Holland. It was bliss - so fun to talk to her and just hang out with her. Afterward we stopped at Meijers to pick up a carseat for her and it was fun to pretend that we lived in the same city and often shopped together. If only (and like we'd really shop together - but still.) I really can learn a lot from her zen like approach to life. I mean really - she is cool in most situations. Amazing.
Worst Part of the Day - My dad and I had an issue today regarding the boyz. He was getting so annoyed with them (and really I don't blame him - they are at a tough age and are (euphemism ahead) "very active". But he's always been sooo calm with them - so it's hard to see. But at the end of the day, although he did not apologize, he did say "it's just the age and they are such good kids." So .... I'll take it and we'll all move on. I was telling Erik about it and he said "we've all been there." Hell yeah (and God Love the grandparents who let you move in for WEEKS at a time.)
Worst Part of the Day - My dad and I had an issue today regarding the boyz. He was getting so annoyed with them (and really I don't blame him - they are at a tough age and are (euphemism ahead) "very active". But he's always been sooo calm with them - so it's hard to see. But at the end of the day, although he did not apologize, he did say "it's just the age and they are such good kids." So .... I'll take it and we'll all move on. I was telling Erik about it and he said "we've all been there." Hell yeah (and God Love the grandparents who let you move in for WEEKS at a time.)
Tuesday June 1, 2008
Worst Part of the Day - With my gym membership I get three sessions with a personal trainer. All was well until she did the body fat deal - um, that was not so lovely. Shite - must stop eating off the boyz plates!
Also I think Grandpa needed a little break from the boyz today - trust me, I know the feeling. Also he's off his pain med - maybe he should go back on.
Best Part of the Day - After the gym, the boyz and I went to the playground and they had soooo much fun. Ahhh - at last something that makes them happy, they can do mostly independently, they don't get told 'no' over and over about and they can use their 'outdoor' voices. Sheer bliss.
Also began the Iraq war documentary Out of Sight and am FLOORED and OUTRAGED. Will hopefully finish tomorrow.
And Erik began his first day of work in Charlotte .... one day down, 364 to go (no he actually said it was a fun and interesting day).
Also I think Grandpa needed a little break from the boyz today - trust me, I know the feeling. Also he's off his pain med - maybe he should go back on.
Best Part of the Day - After the gym, the boyz and I went to the playground and they had soooo much fun. Ahhh - at last something that makes them happy, they can do mostly independently, they don't get told 'no' over and over about and they can use their 'outdoor' voices. Sheer bliss.
Also began the Iraq war documentary Out of Sight and am FLOORED and OUTRAGED. Will hopefully finish tomorrow.
And Erik began his first day of work in Charlotte .... one day down, 364 to go (no he actually said it was a fun and interesting day).
Monday June 30, 2008
Best Part of the Day - Sometimes when I have a plan, I find it hard to deviate from the plan. This can be good (very focused) and can be bad (inflexible). Today I was all set to get to they gym for a Hour of Power class. I was in gym clothes, children dressed and ready, child bag packed. Then Cousin Kristen called - they were meeting at the Children's Museum in GR and did we want to meet up? Well - I was thinking "nope, nope, I'm going to the gym. I'll see her on Wednesday as scheduled." As we are hanging up Cousin Kristen nicely says "well I'm sorry we couldn't work it out today". I sat there with the phone in my hand and then got my head out of my ass. Put the kids in front of a Sesame Street, took a two minute shower and readied myself. Got the kids in in the car and headed to GR to see one of my favorite people who I don't see nearly enough. LORD - let's get our priorities straight here!! And it was sooo fun - her boyz are A-dorable and the museum is really amazing. Great, fun time!!
Worst Part of the Day - The museum disrupted our schedule and it was hell to pay in the afternoon (I have never seen SB so absolutely miserable and so that made it miserable for all.) Oh well - still worth it!
Worst Part of the Day - The museum disrupted our schedule and it was hell to pay in the afternoon (I have never seen SB so absolutely miserable and so that made it miserable for all.) Oh well - still worth it!
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