Martin Luther King Jr. Day allowed me to do more than recall that man's greatness...it allowed me to do my 'Health Night' during the day. (I made trail mix with the girls at work in an attempt to introduce them to a healthier option than flamming hot Cheetos. It worked! They loved it.) This, in turn, allowed me to get a haircut , workout and meet out for some cocktails in my usual "Health Night" time slot. Yes.
Worst Part of the Day-
Feeling a bit back into survival mode...a bit less eating for me (just rushing around like a freak--as always difficult for me to be clean, fed and on time), way less water consumption (my New Year's res...). Things are pretty awful with Will-O and perhaps on a new level. I am now fielding calls from numerous friends/family asking, "Is everything alright with him?" Ah, no. It's not alright. Remember summertime when I clearly stated it wasn't alright?! Yes, that still continues. It is bad. His parents are highly concerned and we are back to plan of interventions and plain talking (did that ever end?).
This time around (7 untreated months later), I am now feeling a culmination of: super duper sick of being partner-less as I swing it all, exhaustion from playing PR rep on Will-O's behalf, feeling sad/sad/sad for Will-O as I do only want love and peace for him, feeling disloyal even as I type as I don't want others to judge him based on personal info, feeling depressed due to all of the above.
Instead of a win-win, I am feeling a lose-lose swiftly approaching.
Happy B-Day to the hottest 50-something "cousin" I know--Cousin Pate!!
2 comments:
Sorry you are having such a rough time. You guys are in my thoughts...
Thank you, Melissa K.S.!! We both appreciate that kindly...
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